Naps

Lately, sleep has been a chore for me. So I just took a two hour nap, & it was absolutely refreshing. I love waking up early and taking naps in the mid afternoon sun. It seems to make my day longer. I welcome them as often as they come.

And the result is...

Going to bed at 2 a.m. with a thoughts as busy as calculus problems took its toll and resulted in me waking late and therefore being late to my class, that I have to drive 35 min too. However there is something about waking up in the morning and knowing that you have "extra" time, that makes you feel as though you've just won a million dollars. "Congratulations! You just won extra time!". Time is so valuable. Especially in a time where time seems to become more and more of a stranger every day.
However, that wasn't the case this morning. I felt as though time had abandoned me on a desert island and sailed away on a ship going as fast as it could.
When I was recording "A little 19 in Every1" time seemed to be as unfamiliar as a foreign language. We would walk into the studio around 10 a.m. and be in there, literally, all day. I would walk out the door of the studio, without glancing at my cell phone, expecting to walk to into the "Beautiful" 110 degree weather of Fresno, only to walk into a dark night (not batman) shadowed by the moon, bright stars and planets.
"Didn't we only track guitars today?"
"Yup, have a good night man"
"You too dude"

Who would've known playing a guitar all day could literally mean all day.
I stopped and thought to myself, "Music is timeless" and I laughed as I walked towards my car.
Speaking of time, I need to get ready for my next class. Watch the clock or the clock will walk away from you.

"And that's my new philosophy"

Last week I attend (and had a minor role in) a school play a few friends of mine were in. A friend of mine sang a song, and did a very good job, about her "new philosophy" and it made me think. In my philosophy class some pretty "out there" ideas are stated. For example, "Movement is impossible....Kings only rule and have no knowledge, while philosophers do....'Doggie's have doggie virtues that makes it more excellent in itself'....as do knives....Nothing exists, if you don't see it's shadow ( like the words you're reading right now)... Pretty bold statements that are only ideas. If you really look at it, we live in a world full of ideas. Everything is made up by someone who thought about it long enough.
Lately I've been around people's philosophy more than usual. In one of my classes, which is more of a philosophy class then my philosophy class, we are asked our opinions on things. We are encouraged to share our thoughts. People are expect to know that everyone is different and not everyone agrees on everything. What I learned in this class a few days ago, is that some people will love you if you agree with them, and try to embarrass you and gang up on you, if you say something different. It was a difficult class. But I didn't walk out of there feeling defeated, or even angry. I felt good, because I didn't stand down for what I believed in (unlike other people in the class) or even offend any opposing ideas. I welcomed them and simply ask why they believed that thought. A simple question. Sadly, what I got was a class full insults, rolling of eyes, mocking, laughing, and immaturity. I was pretty disappointed. It was also at that point when I realized people will refuse to listen to you, even if you're making pretty valid points. I'm having a hard time remembering what words of mine weren't twisted and used against me. It seemed as though the teacher called on me to state my opinion only to get everyone else "participating". People will do, and say anything to avoid hearing a point, maybe being wrong, or feeling defeated. But it's ok. People who are usually unsure, or who don't have all the answers tend to freak out about things like that. So it's ok. I wont try and pretend to know and understand everything around me, and know how every human being thinks and acts. All I can do is love on people and that's what Ill remain doing. Because without love, nothing makes life worth living.

Some people find it hard to discern if they're still sleeping when their eyes are widely introduced to a fuzzy ceiling in the morning. Other's wait all night for the relief of dreams and escape from the world outside they're window.
What's my case? I wish I could be as tired as I am when I wake up in the morning, when I am wanting so badly to be asleep along with the rest of the world at 2 a.m.
Maybe perhaps getting off the computer would help...
Goodnight world.